Once and Leaving Twice:
the Net Worth of a Christian
“They left everything
and followed Him”
(Saint Luke 5.11)
The Biblical narrative
tells us that Simon Peter, James, and John, having been invited by Jesus
to become “Fishers of Men”, made no preparation whatever to follow Christ.
They left everything ... immediately.
Later, however, we find St. Peter and St. John fishing once again
in an episode almost identical with the first. 1
Each time St. Peter is fishing and each time he comes to recognize Christ
in the middle of his work. He was still simply a “Fisherman” on both
occasions — he had not yet become a “Fisher of Men”. Likewise, on both
occasions, St. Peter’s response in recognizing Christ is immediate:
the first time he throws down the net at once and leaves everything,
and the second time he leaps into the water since the boat cannot carry
him fast enough to Jesus.
Eventually St. Peter did indeed leave everything. He tells the man who
begs money of him,
“Silver and gold
I have none; but what I have, I give thee: In the name of Jesus Christ
of Nazareth, arise, and walk.”
2 — and heals the man.
That was after St. Peter gave up on fish and went after bigger things.
We, too, are called to leave everything and follow Christ — and, like
St. Peter, to pursue greater things: the salvation of souls
.. even our own! Most of us are reluctant to do this, for we have little
It really is a
matter of practice. Even now we should be preparing to leave
everything ... and, hopefully, to follow Christ — at the hour of
One thing is
absolutely certain: sooner or later we will leave everything.
Even the most obdurate atheist knows this. Whether we will leave it
before we leave it — in other words, whether we will choose
to die to this world before die in this world — die and leave
we must, and will.
Like Peter the “Fisherman”, we are engaged in other things when Christ
comes along out of nowhere and calls us to follow Him. St. Peter did
not expect to encounter the Son of God while mending his nets. Neither
will we in the middle of a stock trade, while preparing dinner, or as
we pull up the covers for the night.
Son of Man will come at an hour that you least expect.”
Do you doubt it? Ask St. Peter ... if you could ... or simply look at
today’s obituaries, which you can.
Duns Scotus, the great medieval philosopher, theologian, and Franciscan,
has engraved on his tombstone the following:
Semel sepultus, bis mortuus
“buried once, died twice”
Think on it
He died before
he died — to the world, to the flesh, to the devil, to his own willfulness
and selfishness, to his vanity and to his pride. The physical burial,
in a sense was a formality. He was already living in Christ —
and while in the world, was not of the world. Alike,
he knew the City of Man and the City of God.
knew that he could not hold this dual citizenship indefinitely, so he
renounced the one altogether. Learning to die, he learned to live. It
is the quintessential paradox of which Christ spoke:
“he that will
save his life, shall lose it: and he that shall lose his life for My
sake, shall find it”
You cannot rob
a holy man: His only possession is God
Death was no thief
in the night to St. Peter or Duns Scotus. Why? There was nothing to
steal. They gave up everything and followed Christ. Peter had no practice.
He just dove into it — at least once, quite literally.
For the rest of us, it would seem wise to bone up on it while we have
time, to practice leaving before we leave, and to renounce —
at least with our will — everything that cannot and will not accompany
our leaving to follow Jesus Christ. After all, our faith is little.
Perhaps even less than our time.
In other words,
when He comes, and when we leave, will we be mending the net
... or caught in it?
This is a very real consideration.
Consider it while still you may.
Boston Catholic Journal
St. John 21.3-14
2 (Acts 3.6)
3 Saint Matthew 16.25
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